this place isn't what, you said to be so beautiful.

the lie of life.

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 21:58:55 GMT

we live with a heart of solitude and a fake smile.
just when we thought we had something to live for,
we watch our hope dissipate into space.

nothing is ever perfect.

face your fears.

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 18:23:38 GMT

i don't know what the world thinks of you.
you're a pretty girl, but i think you're

b e a u t i f u l.

and this time, i don't wish to make any mistake.
you're going to be mine.

in the morning and amazing.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 23:20:05 GMT

even though, i barely had enough sleep,
my heart tells me that today is gonna work out just fine. (Y)

xx

Nothing you love lasts too long.

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 00:00:32 GMT

with a body warped with fatigue,
here i am, wishing that you were lying here side by side with me.

i'm going straight to bed. god bless.

xx

birthdays.

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 21:19:02 GMT

Gosh, i have nearly forgotten.

Happy Birthday Jolene Clara Lee Hui Shan.

Happy Birthday Sherilyn Anne Chia Xiu Mei.

til then, goodnight all.

xx

you have my attention.

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 19:28:53 GMT

COPELAND, I LOVE YOU.
SEE YOU GUYS SOON. AND I HOPE TO HEAR FROM YOU GUYS SOON.
I'M CASHING MY MONEY IN TO GET THE SUNSHINE ALBUM.

xx

for a friend.

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 22:58:54 GMT

no we are not the same, you and i.
we're not the same anymore. right now, it was never what it was before.
and if i could turn back time to undo the things that i did,
i would want us to be close friends again.
i would want us to be walking around town, and scanning chicks like we used to.
i would want us to be able to talk about our darkest secrets.
i would want us to be able to hold on tight to 'Bros before Hoes.'

i know i've changed the way i am, and i'm sorry.
its up to you to see the person that i really am.
dude, i fucking miss you.

"eh Ben Loh, i don't say this very often ah, but i fucking love you man.
and i seriously won't have any idea how life would be without you."

that line struck me hard. and it strikes me hard every other day.

sometimes, i wish people would see me the way that i really am.

joy to the world.

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 21:41:15 GMT

today, you took my breath away. and you kept my heart racing,
from the point that i first saw you, and even as i'm typing this.
its very rare how this actually happens. but since M, i have never
met someone that could take my breath away as much as she did.

and this someone, she took more than just my breath.

she took my gaze, my attention, my beating heart.
i'm not in love. but i think that she's someone truly special.

you've taken everything, even...

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 19:37:43 GMT

H A P P I N E S S .

i shook hands with fate.

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 16:28:52 GMT

THESE SCORNFUL THOUGHTS STILL LINGER ON.

i'm sick and tired of everything. goodnight.

about a burning fire.

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 12:58:54 GMT

its so funny how, at times. people try to understand me. and try to appreciate
the person that i am. but along with the irony, i myself, do not understand myself.

i can never understand the smile that i will always wear in front of everyone else.
i can never understand the increasing misery thats been embedded in me for almost 18 years.
contradicting much? well, i thought so too. but i try so hard time and time again
to understand this fixation and i've been searching for the answer all my life, but my efforts are all in vain.

sometimes, i wonder if people really cared. well at the least, they did. in fact,
a lot of them did. but its because of the things which i do and the wrong messages that i convey,
people would often misunderstand me. yeah maybe, i'm a bastard at all things. and
i take a lot of friendships and fellowships for granted. yet, i'm always ready to apologize for what i've done.

but things, will never be the same ever again.
i'm sorry everyone.

has anyone ever felt this way?

nights and lights.

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 22:13:07 GMT

and for once, after a long while, i enjoyed myself.
mstrkrft was amazing and splendid. i hope to see you guys soon.

and i'm listening to Blindside's The Great Depression album.
well, its quite an old record. so who cares. God damn, words cannot explain how amazing it is.
i've been listening to that album since yesterday. and i've never stopped. love it so much.

goodnight. xx

rainbows and butterflies.

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:51:14 GMT

you're in my ~~mind~~, you're in my ~~heart~~.
i wish i knew right from the start.
all my friends say you'll break my heart.
a heart breaker right from the start.

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 21:41:00 GMT

this is not the end of, all that we've set to be.
this is not the time for, everything that you can, lay it down on me.

hit me with something that is real,
with something more than i can feel.
and with an arrow in my heel, i will fall. i will crawl.

this is not the time for, running away from what we've done.
truth without grace is a killer.
grace without truth is lying for fun.

LOVE IS ABOUT

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 10:41:06 GMT

SHOWING FORGIVENESS AND GRACE.

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 08:07:21 GMT

thomas foggin: friendship is supposed to be something that lasts.
you know, not something in which people's opinions change constantly.
unfortunately lots of people don't understand that.

honestly, i couldn't feel more blessed than to feel that someone is there for me.
thanks angmoh.

a one clap is me and you.

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 03:44:17 GMT

" IF A THIEF STEALS YOUR MONEY, AND YOU TAKE IT BACK, DOES IT MAKE YOU A THIEF?"

- ADOLF HITLER.

both eyes opened wide.

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 20:11:47 GMT

I WAS CHASING SUNS ACROSS THIS CIRCULAR PATH,

TAKE ME FREE, I'M WITH YOU, TAKE THE PIECES.

time is a lover and i'm caught in her stead.

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 18:20:50 GMT

i've got my life in a suitcase
and ready to run, run, run away.

lycanthrope.

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:48:48 GMT

my heart is cold, but never as cold as YOURS.

frozen.

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:42:56 GMT

AS THE WORLD AROUND ME DIES.

i've had this up to my neck.

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 07:38:20 GMT

i could have left you with heart shaped bruises.
to show much i really cared.

GOD DAMN.

escape artists never die.

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 08:06:19 GMT

i think everything would be better this way, right?
so, i'll just fuck everything and let it go.
i am pretty much done and over with.

the grace in your eyes.

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 07:41:11 GMT

I hid myself from failure and fear. oh my dear you're a threat to the bad in us all. they tell themselves that each word from your lips .or the grace in your eyes overcomes any fall. All through the twilight you're listening for me. Darling, go to sleep. Cradled by moonlight, I'm dreaming we'll be, love so deep. Floating and fighting, like a kite on a string till you cut through my tether and changed everything. From the sky you looked small, but I loved you the same. So I darted back quickly to spell out your name. And when they say that I'm just a terrible kite, you'll tell them you're proud of my marvelous flight.

Don't hide yourself inside till I'm old. oh my dear you're a threat to the bad we all see. I'm beside myself for the touch of your lips. Or the grace of your eyes that can see good in me. All through the twilight you're listening for me. Darling, go to sleep. Cradled by moonlight, I'm dreaming we'll be, love so deep. Floating and fighting, like a kite on a string till you cut through my tether and changed everything. From the sky you looked small, but I loved you the same. So I darted back quickly to spell out your name. And when they say that I'm just a terrible kite, you'll tell them you're proud of my marvelous flight.

thank you God.

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 06:48:21 GMT

and finally, maybe for once.
just this one time, i'm feeling okay.